friday...

he came home thursday about 9am. he had been driving and driving, through various states, just thinking. said he came to realize that nothing else matters but his family, he doesn't want the kids growing up without him, that he should be taking care of me and treating me like a queen, that he is severely depressed, etc. said he is willing to get help, he doesn't want to live his life like this.

so all that is very encouraging, and i pray it is all true and isn't just a fleeting thing. i need actions on his part to begin to trust what he says. self-preservation, i guess.

all this up and down has been making me feel all out of whack. i pray he can get healthy and we can get things back on track here at home. i'm definitely someone who likes to feel grounded, and i'm ready to feel that way again.